Ugh

I'm still not feeling hot. I think it's allergies but I don't want to pay the specialist to find out! I've been eating local honey and that's helped my headache go away. But apparently I need to eat it several months in advance of the pollen to get some real help. I swear that I can smell the pollen in the air. Sigh. Lily seems a little not herself as well. She rubs her nose like crazy. Sorry kid! I took her to the gym this morning and she started to cry as soon as she saw the building. Sigh. I still took her in and worked out for a whole 5 minutes. I told her I was going away for 5 minutes and then I sneaked back to see if she was still crying. Which she was. I guess I'll not take her for a month to see if she settles down a bit. Pedro and I are trying to work out a way for me to get my time in at the gym without disrupting Lily.

I know that some people might think I'm spoiling her but they can go pound sand. She's my child and I'm raising her the best way that I see fit. I didn't want to have a child, just to tell people I have one, while I'm out bar hopping. I want to be the best parent I can be. And I know there will be some tough lessons she needs to learn (and she's learning some now) about not getting everything she wants and doing the things that mommy and daddy say, I still feel that I should give her the love and attention I think she needs, and not feel guilty about it. Run on sentence, much? :)

Since the gym thing didn't work today, you may have been able to gather that I took Lily to the park instead. She had a pretty good time. I got her to climb up some big kid stairs and go through a tunnel. :) This was her on the drive home. She crashed when I got her down for a nap. :)